Before I am Famous

Daylene and Jason near their one month anniversary. Yet, she doesn’t feel that newlywed bliss that she hears so much about. He is still very nice to her and treats her like a queen. For whatever reason she feels unhappy. I know I love him she thinks to herself as she gets ready for the night. She never told Jason about the trip to the clinic and she she feels a little guilty about that. They have not made love in 2 weeks; she shies away from his advances. She finishes up and heads out to the stage. Jason is not there. He was always there ever since they met. For once she actually felt happy. She flirted with the customers a little more. The show wraps up about 2 am and she heads home. Jason is waiting for her. He is sitting at the kitchen table.

“Hey hon, I missed ya tonight.” She says to him. He doesn’t look at her.

“Sit.” He sips some coffee and then says,” I want the truth from ya. I don’t want to hear I don’t know either I am about half sick of that answer. What the hell is wrong with you lately? We haven’t had sex in weeks and you don’t even seem like yourself.”

She knows she has to tell him what has been going on with her. He is already mad so what is the difference? “I think I made a mistake,” she says.

“Okay what is it?” he growls.

“I, uhhh you know after we got married and we had sex and then next day your mom was suppused to take us out to eat and I went out to do some errands. Well I went to the clinic and I got that pill that ya take right after having sex so ya don’t get pregnant. I took the pill.”

“Why didn’t you tell me. I am your god-damn husband. You know I was with ya about the kid thing. I was just caught up in the moment that night. Dammit Daylene.” he throws his mug at the front door and it shatters on impact. Daylene shudders in her chair.

He stands up and turns away from her. She gets up and lightly touches him on the shoulder. “Look, Jason. I am so sorry. I didn’t want to hurt ya. I love ya so much. Please forgive me.”

He whips around and grabs her arms, ” You always be straight with me. We’re a team, we’re in this together.” Then he pushes her against the counter and kisses her neck. He presses his body closer to hers. She wants him more at this moment then she ever has.

She pulls out his shirt and he rips off hers. He pulls her to the floor and takes her panst off and undoes his. She pulls him in closer to her. The mouths are everywhere on each other’s bodies. She feels the heat from his body and quivers with his thrust. She grabs him and draws him in her deeper. He finishes and kisses her on the lips.

He is still breathing heavy, ” I know this ain’t easy it never will be but not sayin anythin to me will make it harder. Promise me Day you won’t do it again. ”

“I promise.” He envelopes her into his sweaty, warm body. Whatever happened in that moment, made her realize that she did make the right choice about marrying him. She never wants this moment to end.

Hello, I did not post yesterday because I was doing some work on my blog to make the catergories work better.I have like 4 months to go so it might take me a little while before that mess is all done and over with.

Today, was the first day that my daughter played in the snow. She absolutely loved it. The snow came up to her kness and it was all powder snow which made it nice for her. I tried to get to her to make a snow angel but I don’t think she appreciated the snow down her diaper. She doesn’t have a full snow suit yet. I will get her one after x-mas, so she doesn’t have 2. Of course I did not like the snow down my pants either when I was in the snow.

For anyone that is following the story, tomorrow will be another chapter. Some people say I am not bold enough with the story and I am holding back a little too much so maybe I will change the pace and let my hair hang down. SO this closes another day in my life.

Have a wonderous day and keep warm by the blazing fire.

Well I started work yesterday. It was a little odd at first because for the last year and half I spent every day with my daughter and now I was away. Also, I haven’t worked in 2 years so that is another thing that was weird. And finally it was 4 in the afternoon and it was quiet. It was pretty slow yesterday, probably because it was bitter cold and no one wanted to come out.

It was nice to be back in a way. I seen a lot of people that I used to know from working there before. And I got a free pizza. Papa John’s is in the same strip mall as us and they brought in a messed up order for me and the girl I was working with. Who is my friend that I met when I waorked there the first time.

I am glad to be working again plus I get a paycheck before Christmas so that is a bonus!!! Tonight big snowstorm in the valley. BRrrr they are calling for more then 6 inches. I don’t mind the snow I just don’t like driving in it. I like to drive incredibly slow and it seems like everyone around here has a 4×4 and they drive up my ass all the time.

Well enough for today. Have a snowy day.

Snow falls from the darkened,
pink-tinged firmament.
Covering an already all white, cold world.
The wind blows the snow; blanketing
my sight with white.

I hear your voice, calling my name.
There-
There you are- you could have
been anyone or anything or be with
anyone.
And yet-
yet, you are here with me.
You are electricity and I-
I am just a light bulb.

Amongst the snow-filled, cold world, it is forever spring.
Trees bud with fresh leaves
Green shards push through the white
Red roses blossom full
The sun heats us
A quick storm passes

EXPLODING-

with sound and jagged bolts
Sweet, warm rain drenches us.

We lay together, breathing slow,
living in our forever spring
in this cold world.

Whose Oranges Will be Squeezed at the Orange Bowl?

On Sunday, the bowl games were announced. Number 3 Penn State Nittany Lions take on the #22 Florida State Seminoles in Miami at the Orange Bowl. Florida State is the ACC champions.

The Seminoles have a a record of 8-4 for the regular season and 6-3 in the Atlantic Conference. They narrowly beat Virginia Tech for the title. For the most part, when the Seminoles win they win by a lot of points. Many people in the sports world think this will be a great game because the meeting of 2 top notch coaches Joe Paterno and Bowden. More than likely this is the last time they will meet; they met before in the stadium 30 years ago.

Will Florida stop the Lions dead in their tracks? No, I know the Nittany Lions will be victorious in their first bowl game in years. Both teams will score and probably score a lot but Penn State will pull ahead by 3 points to win the game. We will have to see- only a few weeks to go.

Have a nice day!!

Well I finally learned on how to put pictures on my blog. Let’s just say I am not the most computer savvy. Anyway I will be scanning in the illustrations for the children’s poems I wrote. This way everyone can have a good laugh.

I am learning the program for the scanner so it will probably take me a little while to actually do so look for that in the near future.

This computer is crap so if I don’t write for a couple of days, I threw the god damn thing out the window. I have been having all sorts of trouble with it. Right now it is the internet. I uninstalled AOL and then reinstalled it and it is still crap. It worked fine last night.

So Santa, if you are reading this, I know I said I really wanted a toaster but I would love a new computer. Preferably a laptop so I can have in the living room but I am not picky and I will take anything. Just to let you know my computer is 166 MHz and with only 64 mB of RAM so it is time for a new one. Time for me to join the 21st century.

PS Bowl announcement tomorrow night- Where will Penn State play and against whom?

Have a non-frenzied day!!

Daylene is still worried about the slim chance of being pregnant. She knows why, too. She is afraid that she just made the biggest mistake of her life. Only a short time ago she was a happy go lucky girl and now she is married to a man that wants a child already. She knows what she has to do. Daylene looks over at Jason drinkning his coffee. She smiles at him and he smiles back.

“I have some errands to do,” she stands up, “I’ll be back before your mom comes over.”

“You want me to come along?” he asks.

“No it’s okay.”

She leaves and drives herself to the free clinic. She wants a couple of hours and then nurse calls her name. She is seated inside a nice clean room when Terese, a doctor’s aid that daylene has dealt with in the past many times, comes into the room.

“Hey there stranger, what can I do for ya today?” Terese asks.

” I am kinda afraid I might be pregnant. Cuz last night I had sex and the rubber broke. Can I have that pill, you know the one you have to take as soon as possible.” Daylene says and turns her head away.

“I heard you got married yesterday.” Terese says.

“I did but ya know he had a really cute friend and we met up before I got married. Ya know one last time before the ceremony. I just couldn’t help myself.” Daylene explains.

Terese smiles, “Yeah I know what you sayin. I was the girl the groom had before he went up and got married. I ‘ll get you the script. I don’t want your marriage starting off bad.”

“You’re a lifesave Terese.”

A few minutes later she comes in with prescription. Daylene takes the paper and gets up. ” Hey Day, take care of yourself. And good luck with the hubby. Maybe I’ll see ya soon when you get pregnant.”

Daylene fills the prescription and takes it right away. She lights a cigarette and listens to the radio. She thinks about what she was going to tell Jason where she was all morning. She finishes her smoke and lights another while turning the key for the car. Daylene is already feeling a lot better. When she gets back home Jason’s mother is already there.

“Hey sweetheart get everythin done ya need to?” Jason asks her.

“Yeah, I needed to get my dresses cleaned and they were still at the club and Dionne’s house and all. That is why it took me so long. How are ya doin? I got that necklace for ya in the bedroom.”

“Mom wants to take us for a fancy lunch. Why doncha get fixed up a little bit.” Jason tells her.

“Okay , just give me a few.” Daylene says.

Hello everyone. I have pretty good news. I am going back to the workforce. I am soo happy about that. It has been about 2 years since I last had a job. I am not lazy for anything but I was staying home to care of my daughter.

Anyway I am going back to the smoke shop. I used to work there a couple of years ago. The manager there is pretty laidback and willing to work with my boyfriend’s schdeule. Which is pretty important to me because not many employers would do that. I go for the piss test tomorrow morning and when that comes back I will be able to start work.

Hopefully, I don’t get robbed again. Before I started there I was a witness to a robbery and then a couple of months later Iwas robbed at gunpoint. I wasn’t hurt or anything he robbed me with a Daisy bebe gun. But luckily, nothing has happened there since my robbery.

I am just looking forward to making some money again and getting out of the house. I love my kid but it will be nice to have some time with out her. I am only going to be working part-time, so I will still post fairly often. Sometime tommorrow the next installment of GI Blues Song.