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My Two Selves

Posted on | May 20, 2006 |

Last night, I was going through a lot of old stuff in my journal, seeing what I wanted to edit and put on the computer. I made the decision the other day that I am going to put a lot of poems together and make a book out of them. I figured if I want to be a serious writer then I actually have to start doing something. Well anything would be a start in the right direction.

Anyway… I was going through the journal and I have to say that I am not as bad as I thought I was. Okay maybe I am tooting my horn but it almost seems like it to me that I have 2 selves. I have the outward self, the one that people know me as. And then I have the writer self, where I actually have something worthwhile to read, at least for some people anyway.

I guess I never thought as myself as having 2 types of personalities. Okay I am not dysfunctional but I feel like the outward self is definitely not the same as the author self. On some level there is some similarity, like writing and saying what I mean.

Sometimes, I think that maybe I am not good enough. But I don’t know, I think maybe that I am. And with that I am starting to think more about my future as being someone who wants to write. I am not talking just a hobby but something that will make me happy in my life.

With all these thoughts is in my mind, I have come up with some goals for myself. In one year’s time I want to finish writing and illustarting my children’s book, construct a book poetry and finally… get more than half of my novel finished. The last one being the hardest but the story is there all I have to do is put to paper.

I will let you all know the status of those three goals, periodically. When I am done that I am going to start looking for publishers. Okay well enough for now.

Have a nice day.

Category: notes on writing

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