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I Know What My Problem Is…

Posted on | March 31, 2008 |

There is this war  between what I read and what I write.  Right now, I am in the middle of reading Mr. Murder   by Dean Koontz; a second novel to be  read this week. I love his words and how he writes things,  describes things. Then I look at my own work and I am lacking depth and imagination. ANYONE can crap out the stories I have been writing. Really anyone can  try it for yourself  and you will see. All my stories do is quelch my own hunger for creating a story. I can draw when I want to but I have no passion whatsoever in the visual arts. I don’t wake in the middle of the night and have to draw.

I don’t know what I am doing wrong except everything.  Night after night I scour the web for writing tips, how to write, you  get the idea and after I am done I feel no strike that I know I can’t do this. I can’t write.  At least not a story anyway. Blog after blog site after site flash before my eyes, they are better than me, is all I hear myself say.

I know every writer is supposed to be different and I know am nothing  like Koontz or King but  I would like to be a good me. This site tells me less is more this one tells me tell everything, another one says don’t use the word was, adjectives are useless, adjecttives and adverbs are important. Who the hell knows anymore? All this contradicting advice, if you want to call it that, makes me feel less and less of a writer everyday.  I want to throw my hands up in the air  and toss my words around me so every peice is scattered in a big mess.

Trying is all I do and now I am sick of trying  advice that gets me no where, sick of trying to write stories that are decent.  Writing was so much easier when I didn’t read writing type things. As a “writer” I have no idea who I am come to think of it I think many people there have no idea. Frusturating, because I want to be a writer but I think “want” and “abilty” are two different things. Anyone can use the English language properly, any one can construct sentences but there is a difference between usgae of the language and creating something with that language.

I may love words and love to write but the ability, talent just isn’t there.

Category: notes on writing

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  1. Dadu
    March 31st, 2008 @ 7:30 am

    What is this. Are you pulling my leg. You need to snap out of this funk. I have always been amazed at your talent to put your thoughts on paper. You do not need to read other peoples opinion on how to write. The only style and content of your writing that matters is yours. King and Koontz’s had these same moments of self doubt during their early days. One of the things they have in common is the ability to bring to life on the page what is in their mind. Many authors can do that but what makes them unique, and I inculde you in the same category, is their ability to think and dream concepts that most of us mortals could not fathom and paint the pictures in the readers minds using words. King’s writings evoke an emotional reaction in me. Your work does also. You are just rough. I am sure they were in the early days. The answer is to keep plugging away. I have told you and I am still 100% convinced that you will make it. It will just take time, probably lots of it. Don’t stop writing and don’t stop putting your writing out there for all of us to enjoy. The world would be losing a really talented writer.

  2. Shireen
    March 31st, 2008 @ 12:51 pm

    I have read Mr. Murder ;)
    And don’t put yourself down, all writers get the block every now and then.

    Shireen’s last blog post..Going Back to College

  3. Ana
    April 1st, 2008 @ 3:28 pm

    I like your writing style and I guess lots of other people also do so. Or why they subscribed to your feed and keep on coming back to your blog? Don’t bother yourself with any writing advises that are written somewhere. Everyone should have his own style and btw, not everyone likes King :-)
    Ana’s last blog post..Chica at the Pyramids Part 2

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